Part 3 of 4
About migraines, Metaphysics reminded me that the root cause of this condition is the thoughts I have with feeling that are in accord with the "Dislike of being driven. Resisting the flow of life. Sexual fears." It also says, see headaches which states, "Invalidating the self. Self-criticism. Fear."*
As mentioned in the previous posts, I believe that all conditions are produced in correspondence with the thoughts I have with feeling that are consolidated, validated and reinforced by the words I speak and the actions I take. Every thought, feeling, word and action takes me toward or away from my ideal.
In my contemplation of the content of these posts, it occurred to me just recently that I learnt about migraines from a neighbour. She used to get them to the extreme that would render her incapacitated for up to three days at a time. The only time she left her darkened room or bed in these moments was to violently throw up/vomit.
On reflection, and from a place of uncritical observation about the past thinking that produced this condition in me, I can see that I learnt early the dislike of being driven, pushed or coerced into doing anything that didn't sit well with me. I didn't know there was a "flow to life" so it's no wonder I resisted - I didn't like what I was experiencing, so I certainly didn't want to flow with it.
I began early to endeavour to control life given it often seemed out of control to me. Particularly as a small child, my parents, in an attempt to protect my brother and I, would argue throughout the night turning my little stomach into knots of dread and fear.
The parents I mention here are of a version dating back approximately 38 years. We have all morphed into a very different version of who we were at the time these conditions and experiences took place. That being said, it was from my parents that I first observed this dislike of being driven.
My father, displayed what I might refer to as a severe case of emotional instability. I recall him on occasions threatening to end his life and I am, to this day, unaware of the beliefs that drove this style of personality and behaviour. I am however aware of the ones that eventually caused this same condition to prevail in me. Mum was the other character in this play, taking on the role of victim/rescuer of this challenging emotional expression.
I tolerated few people, especially teachers (whom I generally liked and who liked me), telling me what to do and how to do it. I absolutely disliked being driven in the direction of someone else's agenda and learnt well how to invalidate my self and be highly critical of myself which I masked by becoming critical of others. I judged and found most folks as being highly incompetent.
These days, through the study, coaching and conversation, I am aware that what I speak and observe in others is what, at some level (consciously or unconsciously), I like or dislike about my self.
In life there cannot be an abuser without a victim, a carer without a patient, or a rescuer without an endangered one. We are all playing roles in this existence we call humanity. Additional knowledge I found useful when it came to playing a different role, a more "ideal' role, is that in any moment, even right now, I am free to choose again.
As well as the victim/rescuer, to me mum was the rock, the stabiliser, and the main influencer in developing an intense personality of independence and justice in me. These traits have served me both well and not so well and which I spent much time refining. While there were things about my parents I didn't admire, today, there are also ones I do and this list grows longer. Through the understanding and practice of grace and forgiveness (A Course in Miracles being one of the influential sources in this process), I have completely embraced that everything that has happened in my life has brought me to this place. Once upon a time this place didn't feel ideal, for many reasons, and now - because life has become so delectable, my feelings of gratitude grow ever deeper.
The first step to overcoming migraines was again Awareness. I felt is was possible and made the choice to end this cycle - I recall reaching the point of "This is enough! No more!" Initially, Metaphysics provided the new thought program which I read and affirmed often, "I relax into the flow of life and let life provide all that I need easily and comfortably. Life is for me." And, "I love and approve of myself. I see myself and what I do with eyes of love. I am safe."*
In conjunction with Metaphysics I was introduced to and adopted the practise of EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) - an ancient asian technique of tapping on the body's meridians, or pressure points, to relieve undesirable conditions of all sorts, including limiting beliefs and deicisions. It was highly effective for me, enabling me to return my compromised vision that indicated the onset of a migraine from 20 minutes to under 5, and reduce the throbbing headache from anywhere up to 16 hours, and copius amounts of medication, to under 10 minutes.
Being the work in progress that I am, again it takes great vigilance to monitor my thoughts and emotions to avoid the undesirable health condition that manifests or shows up in the form of a headache or migraine. However, the evidence that my health Blueprint for this condition has been permanently altered and continually improving is again unquestionable.
I'll wrap up the health Blueprint series in the next part. I will set the knee problem aside, momentarily at least, and share some thoughts on the subject of depression before moving on to the next topic of the work Blueprint.
I welcome any queries about any of the health conditions listed in Part 1 of this health series or any other that may be of interest to you.
Here are some questions to contemplate if you feel inclined to do so:
- Are you still holing on to events that occurred in the past? How much longer are you willing to live there giving that the laws that govern life say that what we think about with feeling produces the conditions of our future that are coming to greet us?
- What act/role are you playing and is it serving you well? Does this role assist or keep others and yourself in an undesirable place or is it empowering and encouraging change and growth?
- Are you being observant of the thoughts and emotions that are producing your health conditions - the good ones and the not so good one?
until I post again...
Live the Life you Love
source: Your Can Heal Your Life, by Louise L. Hay